I’ve expressed my dissatisfaction with my current job already. I’ll only repeat that I’m burned out on this type of customer service. To say anything more would be to tempt me to slide into negativity and I won’t go there today.

The problem with looking into a career change is that everything has changed in the last 14 years. Everyone wants me to have a resume and a cover letter to apply. The last time I made a resume was fresh out of high school so I’m a bit clueless there. Cover letter? What is that meant to do? Everyone I ask says to Google it, but that just created more questions and confusion. So I signed up with a career counselor. Two sessions in and I have homework to do, a bit more understanding of myself, and I’m being encouraged to pursue something that my fear gland says is just a pipe dream…but I want to do it anyway, even if it stays a hobby.

I want to turn Caosville into a working farm that pays its own way. My homework is to contact a few people who are doing it. Ask questions about their business model and how they market their products. Attend a farmer’s market or two and talk to the vendors. All things I know I should have been doing already but chickened out of. It terrifies me, but then change always does.

So my planned schedule for my blog hasn’t worked out the way I wanted. I think that’s okay for now. I’m still figuring out the purpose of writing here. I know at some point I will use it to talk with people doing business with me so the personal exposition feels a little awkward, but I also know that it proves I am a real person with obstacles to overcome. We are all human, like it or not. Some days that has to include forgiveness for your own weakness while pushing yourself to step forward anyway. And at some point in the future I will come back to these early posts just to see how far I’ve come.

Okay, time to do some research so I know where to explore. Hooray for new experiences!